Thursdays

10/4/12

Thursdays

Despite the escalated back pain prohibiting me from long walks, the new mole-like extra skin growing on my neck, and every hour on the hour bathroom break in the middle of the night, thoughts of getting to see your precious face makes it all worth while.  As my body continues to develop outward with round plump toes, puffy fingers and a growing belly button that was once an innie, I continue to enjoy every second of feeling your rolls and kicks.   Even though  my weakened body and forgetful mind has taken the best of me, the last eight months of carrying you around has been the best time of my life.  

 My cravings have evolved from sour green apples dipped in heavy sea salt to various Vietnamese soup noodles to ice cream cones to Mc Donald's french fries accompanied by two containers of hot mustard, all of which I have enjoyed in a sparingly manner. Every day I load my body up with at least 3 cups of Silk Almond or Soy milk, a banana, an apple or strawberries, omega 3, and two prenatal pills just to ensure you're developing at a normal pace.  I no longer see food as food, I see it for what it's worth - its nutritional values.  I no longer eat for me, I now eat solely for you. 

Your daddy's attentive and caring nature has made this pregnancy that much more pleasurable for me.  Occasional ten-minute foot massages,  regular house chore activities, and feeding my serious cravings by allowing me to eat the entire large french fries from Mc Donald's all by myself has relieved me from some weird pregnancy symptoms. As I reach the end of this journey, all I can think about is the actual time of giving birth to you and how that thought has given me doubts of whether I can go through with it.  Along with all the prenatal classes are detailed stories I've heard from friends and family about the delivery process,  both has heighten my sense of uncertainty and lowered my confidence.  I'm not sure if your daddy has recognized my fear, but he has done a great job trying to lessen my fear of delivery by conveying to me how easy this all will be and how it will all happen quickly and painlessly.  He has also provided me with relaxing weekend get-aways to the desert and sweet endearing comments that makes me feel beautiful. without your daddy, I think this journey would not be as smooth.

Today we celebrate your 33rd weeks of gestation with a double order of Mc D's french fries and a movie called Baby Boom.  We talk about you all the time and we are counting down the days until we get to meet you. And to make sure you arrive to a clean house and a beautiful room filled with everything you need, we are working extra hard and fast to have a brand new wood floor replaced and installed before your arrive. We think you will really enjoy it.  This is just the first of many wonderful things we anticipate doing for you.

You are our first and the love we have in stored for you has magnified beyond measure.  We love you dearly and will sacrifice everything for you.  

See you in roughly seven weeks!